Independence On A Pretend World

Transformation

2009-09-16T14:17:00.004+08:00

Hey,i just came back from school.Math trial?it was okay.Hope i will get A and Farrah and I did well,i think so.

Just drop by to say :

Selamat Hari Raya,maaf zahir dan batin :)

The list is full

2009-09-11T23:28:00.005+08:00

Você é o em que estive olhando for.eventhough eu didnt dizem-lhe como fazem sinto-me em direção a você mas de profundo dentro do meu coração meu, você faz o meu coração fundir-se. Eu gosto de você.

(25 days)

Reversals of Fortune

2009-09-08T15:14:00.004+08:00

Okay.gossip girl season 3?seriously i cant wait.That's all i wanna say for today(well i think so)
& yeah about 3 weeks and a half for the PMR thingy.Study hard and smart..i guess i can pfft.
Bye bye.

17th

2009-09-07T15:59:00.001+08:00

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

-Fallin' for you by Colbie Caillat

Irresistibly desired

2009-09-06T01:30:00.004+08:00

"My night has become a sunny dawn because of you."

Sweet heartkiller

2009-09-04T17:35:00.005+08:00

People change their mood day by day.Eventhough sometimes we faught but i still love you friend.I need to understand you like all the time.Your mood changes so fast like a thunder,i need to understand that.You just walked alone and left me behind.Who am i to you?I asked myself many times.I'm not your mother to scold you.But if you're still doing this,im sure you will have no one to at the end.Now i can remind you but at the end you will regret it.You can't undo it.So please change and understand your friends.I dont want because of this little thing,our friendship will be over.Think about it,deeply.

- A

Drivin' me wild

2009-09-03T16:03:00.004+08:00

Raya : Maybe 20th or 21st September 2009
PMR : 7th October 2009

Fuck -_- i'm dying !
It's been a long time i didnt see his face.I miss it.

This opportunity

2009-09-03T14:49:00.005+08:00

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."

Currently listening to :

A day to remember

2009-09-01T14:31:00.007+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?You touched my heart you touched my soul.Remember us and all we used to be.Maybe you're not the one that i can spent till the last breath.I know it will kills you,but my heart says it's over.This is the right time that i can say goodbye.I know your heart is breaking.I ask myself like thousand times 'why and why i did this to you?'.I kinda want to figure out what I need.It's painful.

Goodbye my lover.

Beautiful Nightmare

2009-08-27T18:08:00.007+08:00

The List.

1)School holidays was so boring.Webcam-ing,uh everyday
2)I miss my friends.I wish i can go out with them
3)PMR is like around the corner.almost 40++ days
4)I've changed my spec from black -> dark red.You may see it on myspace
5)Sushi and ice cream,ergh i want it now*sorry craving
6)Mommy and daddy will be going to Mekah for Umrah.Sad(as usual)
7)Mathematics is getting easier for me.Thank god. But science is kinda hard for me now
8)I want fisheye lens badly(!)
9)Prank call is like so fun for me and Umar loves it too
10)Goodbye.I'm tired

Choose it and live with it

2009-08-24T17:04:00.010+08:00

Wow like hell yeah,at last im in the mood to blogging.I'm fine .So as you all know,ramadhan has started.I'm happy and fasting was okay just tired well thats normal.This 15th and 16th september coming,there will be another trial but only for math and science.But thank god my maths already okay.Seriously im quite happy.From E to tuut but i'll target higher now maybe A.So wish me luck pals.I miss my friends and i miss my december boy.

Can't wait for Eid.Aww.Gemuk balik raya ni.
Can't wait to celebrate with my loves one :D

Mood : Smitten

I miss my Kadishma.

Hot till you drop

2009-08-16T19:52:00.004+08:00

So, today just went out with the family. It's been awhile that I haven't stepped out from the house (school is not included). I mean hanging out bcs of the quarantine thing. News Flash; I just bought this amazing, seriously amazing yet awesome new shoes at zara. Picture on the up if u all can see
Blab, enough shopping stuffs.Trial was okay for me. I don't know. I think i did a pretty good job. Science was pretty tough, and Math was suprisingly easy. Weird, eventho I like Science and hated Math.
FYI,
I'm better now, clearly.

This is what we called disease

2009-08-08T16:42:00.004+08:00

Hello,
i think all of you know already that i'm not really fine now.But thank god,my fever dah tak ada just cough.It hurts so bad man and i hate when i'm wearing mask.Its been like 5 days i didnt went to school ,i missed my
friends.Haih.Trial this monday.What the eff.Am i ready to face the examination?

Confess-ion

2009-07-29T17:12:00.007+08:00

This girl is weak.She doesn't have any gun but if she do have,she would kill people randomly.
She's dissapointed with her friends.She's not happy and she's getting fatter day by day.
She doesnt want a boyfriend,it annoys her because she already have girlfriends.
She hates geography but she's become interested in math.
She's a spoiled brat and bossy.
She always spoiled her friends mood and that makes her feel guilty easily.
She is totally fickle when she wants to choose pictures,ask Umar.He can prove it.
She doesnt easily quit when doing something.
She is very choosy when she wants a new friend.
Jason Mraz is her favourite singer and yeah,she thinks that Nick Simmons is very HOT.
She talks a lot,a lot and when she's around with you seriously you will laugh like hell.Depends -.-
She's not seriously about love thingy but she do believe in karma.
Doctor is her ambition.I am here to help you soon.
She is the youngest among her friends but she's the tallest one LOL.
She can't live without her phone.and yeah her brothers are half of her.
She has 4 chambers in her heart.Those chambers are everything for her.
She never smoke but she's happy with it.
Self potrait?She do love it.and she's very vain.
She doesnt love rainy day but she's really into snow.
I wish Malaysia have winter season.

Thank you.

Under the limit

2009-07-28T18:41:00.006+08:00

Ah yeah,i just came back from singapore.I had a tremendously time at there for 4 days.The sale just ended on our last day at there,thank god lol.We do shop like 24 7,ah yeah i'm talking crap.And i've gained my weight,again Aen?-.-

Trial just around the corner.I target 5 subjects only which is BM,BI,Science,Math & Agama.Goodluck to all of you.

Away away far away

2009-07-23T14:52:00.007+08:00

From what all she saw it gives her sadness. Anyway from deep of my heart i still love them.This is life people,stay focus.

By the way people i'm away to singapore.Four days only so take care.

I'm gonna miss ya.

Coffee and cake

2009-07-21T19:22:00.005+08:00

' A mind too active is no mind at all '

Melancholy melody

2009-07-19T14:21:00.006+08:00

It's been like a week i didnt blog,i miss it though.

You're dissapeared in my life for a long time eventhough for you it's not too long,
I came back and you ask me why i still standing infront of you and begging,
I'm like an empty box when i'm not with you,
My feelings towards you never turn off even for a second,

Mi amor je'taime.

My way

2009-07-15T17:02:00.008+08:00

I'm trying to be the best and i'm trying to be faithful.It is hard for me to stick,I ain't lie to you.I feel so bad when

i'm doing something to them ugh you know,boys.They was so loyal and honest to be mine but i do not think like

they are.Because of my little tiny mistake on two thousand seven,it affected till now.I regret i regret and i do

regret but what can i do.2 years has past very fast without noticed.

Currently listening to Warwick Avenue by Duffy.

Kill your heart

2009-07-10T17:55:00.011+08:00

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life,I'm walking away oh to find a better day
sometimes some people get me wrong,when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun,that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise,some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies,and well I don't wanna live a lie,too many sleepless nights
Well I'm so depressed,things you say you're driving me away
I thought you'd realise,i'm not like them other girls

Currently listening to : Rock with you by MJ

The right path,

2009-07-09T16:22:00.006+08:00

'Success is getting what you want. Happiness is wanting what you get'

This quote give me strength to be more than i do now.This feelings started to built up in my life.I want to be what i wish since i was 13 years old,yes i want to be a doctor.Prove that you can do better than you do now,Aen.My maths improved,ah yeah i'm happy.That is what i wish for too.Supports and advice,i really appreciated it.I tell myself that i want to make my parents happier than now.They want to see heir children in future with a big job and a they want to see their children succeed one day.Stop blabbing Aen Zlazhar -_________-
Oh Oh someone said that i'm a bitch.Wht the hell,i'm happy perhaps -_- HAHA

Got to go.Uh yeah another thing,my english is terribly sucks.sorry folks.

Did you know?

2009-07-08T15:46:00.008+08:00

Uh hi hello folks,
Ah yeah yesterday Umar,my maid and I made some cupcakes.well actually we just want to try but i didnt really know that umar can really cook -_- haha so who wants to be umar's in future?uh sorry umar is izzah's :) Then my maid said ' ah nurul ain ni bukan masuk dapur pun,basuh pinggan pun tak ' hahaha how bad am i -_____- kan kan?haha.I took some photographs,the cupcakes super-fucking-delicious aha trust me laaah :p And and that guy made me smile VERY VERY widely yesterday.No one knows who is he except my maid and Umar hahaha.Currently im listening to all jason mraz songs.I'm addicted,ask razin haha.Oh yeah 'I' i think lets just stop everything.Can we?Aha yeah maybe i'm not for you,i'm not good enough.
Got to go

Knock you down

2009-07-05T16:53:00.006+08:00

What a boring day today.I just watched csi from 12-3 pm but actually im one of the csi fanatic -.- Then,i ate laksa 2 times,thts whyi look like a fat lady with a spectacle and have a pimples on my forehead and i look like ugly betty aite?well as what you see on my myspace pictures,it is alledited.Photo can lies en? HAHAH.I think this is my first time that i tell everybody about this muahaha.I ain't lie yawww.Ask nisa haha.
I miss Aliah Syahidah,Siti Nur Anisah,Siti Aisyah,Faiqah Najwa,Farrah Hidayah,Farah Dhaniyah,Nabilah,Yam(hahahahah),Irfan Dani Al hayat,Abu Shaef,Khairul Zaki,and Halim (hahaha begitu sekali ye halim?) haha what the fish.Gedik je aen ni nak rindu rindu kan?-_-
Ah yeah there so many many many homework that i havent do yet.Too lazy uh?oh yeah baybayyy.Im gonna be dead tomorrow but atleast i've laready finished my Mathematic homework,fuh thank god -___-
Got to go,Chiowww

p/s sorry my english,erh sucks as always.

Art-work

2009-07-04T21:58:00.009+08:00

Grrrrr,Penat duhh buat seniii.Menyampahhhh haha.Sambil sambil tuh webcam ngn nisa.I meluahkan perasaaan maraaaah kat dia hahaha kesian dia kan?Rasa mcm nk bunuh diri je ngn pisau mcm YAM,bestfriend kesayangan ALY hahahhaha rindu dia duh :p
got to go

Satisfaction

2009-07-04T17:47:00.012+08:00

Who am i to you?No one i think so.Then you ask me to buy this ITOUCH thingy.Thank god,i realized at last.Thanks to nisa aly shaef and irfan bcse they gave me a lot of advice and support.This is what i learnt from my experienced but life must go on.We all grow bigger day by day,and a lot of things that we have to discover.We have to get to know well how the people's surround us eventhough we have known them 10 years -.-If you're get wrong,then you'll know.So,here some advice to you: Dont easily trust what people said.I regret,seriously i do.Waiting for you such a waste of my time.I just cant believe this.

Distraction

2009-07-03T20:20:00.006+08:00

Oh hi,actually there are too many story that i wanna share with you,butttt i'm too tired and i'm too lazy.Uh yeah you know right i'm lazy and i ain't lurveee who i am.Haha wht the fish.Ahaaaaaa i've decided to let go H,right decision en nisa?Haha soo i'm quite happy.Uh yeah i before i sign out,just wanna tell you all that i've deleted many of my older post.Dont ask me why,there's some personal reasons,sssssshhhh!
Go to go now.

R U N

2009-06-12T20:16:00.012+08:00

Okay,that is my big brothers.Yeah,Razin Adha and Umar Hariz.Seriously,they are mine.Without them,i'm dull.My life will not shine.Wink wink*Neway,it is fun when i'm with them.They like to give me advise and they are very protective especially Razin :o Umar?He likes to bully me plus he's annoying.But when he cooks?wowww lovelyy.He can be a successful chef one day.Ah yeahh another thing,kak nina,She is so like stylish and sexy hahaahhaha.Cehh geli je.
She's single.anybody interested?hahaha wht tha eff.Pretty shades en?-_____-

Got to go

Introduction

2009-06-10T17:50:00.006+08:00

Okay,the name is Nurul Ain Muhamad Zulazhar.I'm 15 and I'm new here haha.Suddenly rasa macam nk buat blog.So i want to share a little bit about me.I was born on 14th December 1994 and I'm annoying.Well ask umar and razin.They know me well LOL.I love the way i am and I'm not very nice like you think.I love my family & friends.Hrm,i think thats enough right?Toodles :)

p/s I dont really like to write,but i will when i'm bored
and the picture was captured by Umar